Samhain is here, and once again I am unprepared. I find the actual day to day work of witchery something I wish I could find time for- I need the solace and rhythm of a regular practice again, but life is far too hectic for that, currently.
Life has been far too hectic for any practice of any sort, and that seems to include an academic one. I have really dropped the ball there-and I will suffer the consequences and the cost of it in the not to distant future.
My main worry has been and will be the Dragon- we are heading into the winter with no prescription meds to speak of for either one of his conditions. That is the part that sucks the most. I watch him suffer daily in anguish and searing pain, I watch him struggle with breathing on even the most pleasant of days. I watch him get so angry at what his body is doing to him, and I hurt. I hurt because there is not one god damn thing I can do. I can just be here, and love him with all my heart. I know eventually we will have to seek out more drastic measures but for now we are getting by as best we can. We can handle the rheumatoid arthritis, for the most part, with dietary changes vitamins, and other supplements. It’s the emphysema that is the stressor…We will just have to take it one day at a time, and maybe with some of the changes I am making-dropping my hours at the Writing Center, and taking my last two classes on line- I can be home more. Cooking better meals, working on getting more physical activity in, and practicing on a daily basis my work as a witch. Maybe, but then the question is can we afford it?